Somethin Somethin

You know that feeling of accomplish you have right after you have worked really hard on something and are obviously pleased with the results? Ok. Now. You know that feeling when you look at all you have to accomplish before you have started working on it? It's utterly overwhelming, your stomach does that weird icky feeling that no one can really explain but everyone can relate to and then you kinda feel like getting in bed and just sleeping to pretend like it's all not there. Ok.

I feel like the combination of the two.

I feel great about finishing this quarter, and finishing strong. At the same time... there's so much left to do! I'm heading down to Mexico on Saturday (that's kinda soon) and working full-time till then. I kinda got finish my Christmas shopping before I leave (when? who knows) and I have other plans like: a doctor's appointment, birthday party, and CPR extra certifying test thing.

Overwhelmed. Much. But... it's ok. I just listened to Ghost Ship's My God My Father. (P.s. this is my blog and I'll not use grammar and spell check and punctuation or I will the way I want. I do not apologize for it.)

That's a pretty decent song if you ask me.

Look it up: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8f5EVHWimiM

Try to ignore the slightly haha overpowering electric guitar towards the end. Think about the words and enjoy is thoroughly predictable but quite nice voice. Wouldn't it be nice if when we walked through our day it was like: Oh yah everything about God. Well, guess what. I don't know a single person who does that. I wish I did though. I'm thinking hey'd be a good influence. But I mean that's what it means to be 'slaves to righteousness.'

Can you imagine what work, school, family interaction, THE HOLIDAYS, and play time would be like with God as the center of it all. I know that what we're "striving towards" but honestly it's really easy to put God on the back burner when one of your favorite songs comes on... or your co-worker sets you off because they believe that all Christians are idiots and you have to defend Christianity. Well, no you don't. If we lived like God asked us to. Dude. We wouldn't need to convince anyone. That's what I hate about the whole "turn or burn" method. It doesn't work. Here like me scare you into loving your savior and if you don't I'll condemn you. No. Wrong. We aren't the judges. We are suppose to be this beautiful image of Christ's love poured out into the world to serve and give and share and just BE THERE for whatever and whoever needs us. That's such a beautiful thought and if only it was implemented.

The love of God is truly too big for my mind to comprehend. If I could actually comprehend what it's like to live so selflessly that I could pick up my cross and just follow him then I would be monumentally different. That's my prayer for this month. I wanna learn to love like Christ. I wanna see Christians who are like so obnoxiously great to be around that people are just attracted to that love (that's Christ living through them).

That's another thing that people don't get. What it means to be "in the world but not of the world." I know sooooo many Christians who are the two extremes. I wanna be one of those Christians who can be in the world but not of it. You can't just isolate yourself. You need fellowship. You don't have to read your Bible every second. Movies... they're decent things. I just wish that there were more people like that. I want more Jesus' in our world. haha dang it. Sorry I just heard Martha Hadley's voice in my head. Ok moving on.

Ok so I went to the library this weekend and I got three books on photography. One is about macro photography, one is about black and white photography, the third is this AWESOME book about digital photography. It's beginners guide to EVERYTHING and it's written in English which is nice too. It explains the mumbo jumbo that I'm like wha??? to. It's goot. Once I read it all I'll probably recommend it.

Until then...

I guess I'll go decorate my Christmas tree. Since that's the thing to do this season. 1 yr. ago I had just arrived in South Africa. I got really sick and that's about all I remember.