I just wanted to write

Have you ever considered the possibility that God is bigger than you? If not I strongly advice is. No, I'm serious! Stop for a second and say, "God is bigger than me." It's a fact. It's not disputable. If this be the case then why do I feel the need and urge to take every little thing into my own hands? I wish I could blame it own my flesh and human failings- as many do. However, it's more than that. As Christians we have the ability and privilege to choose to trust (or disregard) our maker. I know that many people's "definition" of "Christian" differs but mine states that I believe Jesus Christ is God and that my whole life should be devoted to furthering his kingdom and bringing him worthy praise and worship. This is reflect through actions, lifestyle, words, etc. However, I don't trust God enough. That's my decision. I think now that I've come to terms with that I know what I need to work on. It's not my school situation, my job, my friends or family... no it's simply my lack of faith that hinders me daily. I don't know how many sermons and teachings I've heard on this subject: possibly too many. This concept of trusting God has almost become a sterile one. It has been washed through my mind so many times that trust has lost it's meaning and maybe even value. If I lived like I claim to (stating that I'm a Christian) trust would be at the front of my existence. But it simply isn't. I constantly worry about money for example. I want to travel, I want to buy a car, I want to help my parents financially... money, money, money. I worry. WHY? God provided 11 THOUSAND dollars for my trip last year. That was bigger than me that's for sure. He did that. I didn't. Sooo if he wants me to get a car or to travel more... he's going to take care of that. It's his life not mine.

I guess this was a blog more for me than for you... but if you read this and have been struggling with trust: stop it. It's not your life it's God's and he said he'd take care of his kids cuz p.s. he died for you and loves you like crazy! Don't even for get to marvel in that. I'm blown away by that. Be encourage. :)

Psalms 91 "The Lord is my refuge and my fortress-my God in whom I trust." I wish I could say that with my whole heart!

Challenge today: trust him... pretty straight forward. Don't complicate it.

-Shanna