Functioning Properly

After three nights in a row of waking up in the middle of the night for no apparent reason I'm beginning to wonder what a regular sleep schedule is like. Ah, yes 3 a.m. we meet again. My body has decided that four hours is a sufficient time to rest after an eight hour work day. I do not concur with it's conclusion. Although I think I'll run Greenlake and make an omelet with hash browns- at least I'll get a good breakfast out of it (oh and a grande extra hot white chocolate mocha).

The interesting thing about not sleeping is that instead of sleeping you just think... constantly. Thus, you may discover little gems in the process of not being able to function properly. For example- I just watched four episodes of Sex and the City. Ok... bad example. Ummm... oh yes last night I read half a book, blogged, edited photos, and still had enough time watch most of Ice Age 3.

Do you ever get jealous of people for no apparent reason? Like for example if someone can eat junk all day every day and not gain a pound or studies the night before and gets an A on the final. You get all frustrated because you don't feel normal. Speaking of normal...

Ok so I know it's weird but I really want to go dancing right now. It's the middle of the night and all I can think about it is swing dancing. I do not know why. It's ridiculous that I have this much energy and I do not know how or where to funnel it. Anna and I always say, 'Dancing makes you brave.' It's the truth really. No matter what's going on you can just switch off your brain when you're twirling around. You can't think when you're dancing because you have to focus (well at least I do or I'll fall over or run into someone). And when you're that focused somehow you get brave. Thanks for the advice Grey's Anatomy. We owe you.

I've been thinking a lot about travelling lately. I miss Thailand and everything about it. I especially miss the kids and working in the orphanage. I'm looking into a couple programs but haven't found something I'm in-love with yet. It's so weird to have such a strong urge for something and yet having a 'not yet' or 'wait' or even 'no'. Makes me kinda mad but at the same time I'm not ready to go back yet.

I fight so hard to get places sometimes that I miss where I'm at and look back on it with longing and regret. Stopping and enjoying what you have is a lesson everyone has to learn but I think God has tried to teach me this one too many times. Eventually I'll get it. (P.s. the lady in this show just wore a 'dress' that looked to me like a bathrobe- like ugly bright floral shouldn't be worn in public bathrobe. huh.)

I'm currently reading all of these websites of ministries/organization I'm interested in. It's sad to me the inability to communicate the devastation and need from such a distance. Although there are pictures, stories, and easy opportunities to help... we're so far away it's easy to just ignore it all. Plus there's enough mess around us. I'm thankful for the perspective I was given when I was overseas but at the same time it's so hard to live in the Western culture with it. It's not reality here and almost seems irrelevant... even though it is far from that.

Wanna help with this: http://www.ywamthai.org/thedwelling

Listening to this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WYAgRN7PMqQ

Love this: http://lookbook.nu/look/190559-i-surrender-happily

Ok, now that I have spent $50 online shopping for things I do not need. I think I will go running. I hope ya'll are still sleeping sweetly. :)

-Shanna

p.s. Sorry if you just read all of that. I have nothing profound or really interesting to say right now. I'm just bored...